Vitamins, training and speech oh my!!!

So... 

After several other issues since my last update with A we are now on Natures Vitality Calm for kids. A is not hyper, but focused. She enjoys playing but it I usually it is very involved and exploring all aspects which eventually leads to her not eating well. So, I found a multi mix, gmo free and full of raw good for you things like fish oil, veges, fruits, bcaa and the normal vitamins and minerals. I started her on two tbsp a day mixed with oj. She is on day four. So far nothing big yet, but I do notice when she misses gym days with me. Apparently A loves being as active as we are. She missed Thursday because of speech and was a grumpy monkey the rest of the day. This leads me to believe we are doing right by her. 

We are also facing a consult for multiple therapies for her. I prefer not to go into detail, but it has angered me only because for months I have indicated a need and it feels like it is taking forever to get a licensed therapist out. It is nice to know her therapies are paid for until 3, but it seems like it may not start until 3 at this point. 

On another aspect I have veered away from powerlifting and into Strongwoman. I had high hopes that strongman would be different from powerlifting, but I am wrong it just has less weirdos than pl. I have asked and received help from a handful of MEN amateurs and one very good sponsored sm but not one single female. I tend to think this is because Strongwoman has less participants, but so does powerlifting; regardless I am very use to being the exclusion being as I never trained Westside, will not ever touch the cube and 5/3/1 is just not for me and with Strongwoman, you can train but there is no set program. 

Strongwoman training:

I do know this: I need stone work. I need front squats. I need high pulls and upper back strength. I need endurance. I will program this in as well as the normal squat, Deadlift and OHP. I am also going to start walking with A with a weight vest on to help. 

SN: this blog was written before this "pro" thing went on. I have one thought.. I see faults on both sides and I wish to keep that to myself. 

Just a thought....

I wish people knew what it was like to be in my shoes. To wake up every morning with your arm half asleep and your husband upset because your child sleeps with you, not because of a belief or bond but because you are worried she will quit breathing. 

I wish people would take me for the person I am that is not always showing, the one who worries constantly if I am on top of the laundry, the dishes, med refills, the grocery list, bills or even  current research on A's nutritional, heart, gi, sleep or speech needs. The one who lifts when she can because putting her in daycare is a death sentence because of the financial burden of a hospital stay. The one who lifts because she would lose her sanity and all reason if she could not. The one who feels like although she tries, she knows she has placed her spouse on the back burner to make everything work to have a family.  The one who will always speaks out but not about the things that really bother her. The one who also works 29+ hours despite what people think. 

I wish people knew the countless things it takes to be strong. Physically and mentally. 

I wish people would experience the daily issues of a child with needs. 

Often, more than once a day I try to research alternate methods to help my little. Such a small surgery brought on big consequences... And often I do not even know where to start.